Friday-Friday

This is Zack's Profile photo when we first saw him in November 2011

And Zack during a family visit September 2012

Yes it is 3:23 AM here in Louisiana and I am awake.  All my children are in bed and yet I can not close my eyes.  It has been a very difficult and trying week for me.  With so many worries in my head I ask our Lord over and over to please help me rest with no worry. It is difficult for me to not worry.  I ask our Lord that I am handing it all to him but I feel worthless at this moment knowing I can only do just so much.  There are just some things I know I can not do alone for I need help and guidance.  I have Faith the type of Faith I know our Lord does and will provide yet I can not help but worry.  I miss these little ones and like most mommas who are separated from their young they mourn in sadness.  Most of my time is spent providing for my family needs and the remainder I volunteer or I am at the hospital or a doctor with a kid. I am showing before and after photos of our children. Now tell me how can I walk away from these children.  Especially after we promised them we would come back.  How could anyone walk away and say good bye?  I miss my little ones to the point my stomach hurts inside. Each day they are both in my prayers and thoughts.  May this time pass us back quickly but not to quickly where we do not have enough funds.  I need sleep so of to bed to try one more time before I have to get up by 6:00AM.

This is the photo of Braska when I first saw her profile in August of 2011.

This is Braska in September 2012 during a family visit.